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Daydream Rendezvous

Close my eyes

Drifting off

To where you are waiting for me

The awkward dance begins

At first shy

Slowly we find reasons to come together

Hearts aching

Skin agonizing for just one touch

Never before

Have I been so instantly connected

So desirous for someone

Taunted by cravings

We converge cautiously

Caressing our yearnings

Soft lingering kisses

Passionate embrace

Intensely bonded to one another

Powerful attraction

Fierce affection

You tenderly gaze in my eyes

Soul and body entwined

Melting into each other

Alone in our existence

Pure bliss

Forbidden love

Played out as fantasy

You fade

I awaken

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His Gifts

I am stubborn like he was. I consider it a compliment; it means that I’m not easily controlled. He couldn’t be either.

I am intelligent like he was. I was not just good in school; it’s more of a natural ability. He was one of the smartest people I’ve ever known.

I am amusing like he was. I have a dry, sarcastic sense of humor; I can infuse plain silliness when I’m in the mood. He taught me to be able to laugh at myself.

I am strong like he was. I can push aside pain; both physical and emotional and keep driving ahead. He also made sure I knew it was okay to be weak too.

I am gentle like he was. I have a very prominent soft side to who I am. He was an amazing combination of tough and gentle.

I am sharp-witted like he was. I come up with the best teasing prods and comebacks; I had to in order to hold my own with him. He was one to keep me on my toes.

So many people say they see my dad in my face, my mannerisms and my overall persona. I see my dad in my heart and in every minute of how I live my life.

He gave me all my best qualities and even the not so great ones that I adore just because they make me more like him.

I celebrate him in my thoughts, my dreams and my life. I miss him with every breathe I breath and every word I write.

Five years it has taken to even attempt to put in to such inadequate and pathetic words what he is to me. He wouldn’t like that I’ve hidden from it for so long- hidden from him.

He would tell me I’m being ridiculous. He taught me to face things head on and I haven’t been able to do that.

I get so angry that he’s gone. I feel like a little kid throwing a temper tantrum screaming about how it isn’t fair.

That someone so young, so full of life should have to die. The one thing he wanted the most he wasn’t even able to see happen; a grandchild.

Sometimes I fear I’ll forget somehow. Like he will fade- I know that isn’t possible because I am so much like him.

But I can still picture his face so clearly. The face he always had when he was holding a baby. That huge smile that shouldn’t fit on such a big, strong man.

I laugh to myself sometimes when I think of all the times parents tell their kids they hope their kid is just like them. My grandparents must have loved it when my dad had me.

We could sit for hours and watch baseball or those terrible westerns he liked. We’d argue about whether or not he had fallen asleep.

I’m resting my eyes… he always used that excuse. I asked how on earth he was able to snore while being awake and he’d just grin at me.

He couldn’t handle it when I cried. I used to think it was a guy thing but now I know it was because he loved me so much it hurt him when I was sad and he couldn’t fix it.

If he knew I now have his disease he would never forgive himself. At least he was spared that and seeing his daughter in his same pain.

I will forever be a daddy’s girl. I will forever know he was proud of me because he told me so often. I will forever feel his immense love for me. What more could I ask?

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Look Again

Look Again

-LA Clark

How can you look,

Deep in my eyes,

Say that you love me,

Say you never lied?

How can you look,

Way into my heart,

Reach out your hand

Touch the softest part?

How can you look,

Into my soul,

Love it so tenderly,

Yet leave it a hole?

How can you look,

Far in to my past,

Try giving me something

You knew would never last?

How can you look,

To what is to be,

And not see yourself,

Here beside me?

How can you look,

Through beauty of skin,

And see there is something

Blossoming from within?

How can you look,

And say we only fought,

You said it was love,

That in me you sought?

How can you look,

And see me cry,

Turn your head,

And say goodbye?

How can you look,

Not see all that we had?

You’re blinded of the joy,

As you leave me here sad.

How can you look

And say you see

All that is wonderful

Inside of me?

How can I live,

Without you around?

It is not easy

But my heart can still pound!

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My Dear Friend

My Dear Friend

-LA Clark

 

My dear friend, you say you are alone.

However, you are not

For you have me. A friend.

I may not be what you want or need.

Yet, I am here.

Take me as I am offered.

My dear friend, you say you are alone.

Lonely is a terrible way to be; I understand.

You will find one who loves you,

When it happens you’ll be glad you waited.

You deserve better than you are willing to settle for

You need a lover to love completely.

My dear friend, you say you are alone.

Well, here I am, take my hand.

Take the fun and laughs we’ve shared

Take them and keep them in your heart.

Always know I am here for you,

Always know I care.

My dear friend, you say you are alone

But open your eyes for you are not.

Remember that love of a friend is the strongest there is.

With that remember also my love to you, my dear friend.

Close by or far away, you’ve never tested me before.

Give me a chance and I will show you what a friend truly is.

My dear friend, you say you are alone.

Those words break my heart.

For I am here for you and plan to stay that way.

So, how can you be alone? Please tell me I do count; for I try.

My dear friend, if you say you are alone,

I say you are a fool.

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Winter’s Shade

Winter’s Shade

L.A. Clark

This morning I looked out my window,

All I saw was white.

For a moment I couldn’t determine,

Was it day or night?

 

I’ve lived my life, a shadow.

Just a figure in the shade.

Today all that is changing,

For my life is what I have made.

 

I know that it is winter.

I feel the cold and pain.

When you put your arms around me,

Nothing felt the same

 

Is my life a joke?

Or is my life worth living?

Will winter ever leave my heart?

And let me stop this sinning.

 

I ask you please to let me go.

Please loosen your grip on my heart.

Will you let me experience what it’s like,

To play an important part?

 

Winter’s Shade is killing me.

I’m withering away.

I want my life the way it was,

Before that fateful day.

 

The day you walked into my life,

Is the day I’ll never forget.

For at that very moment.

My soul mate, I had met.

 

Your shining eyes had charmed me,

Your heart had look so tender,

From that very moment,

I knew Cupid was the sender.

 

When you are close to me,

My loving heart would fly.

It was obvious in my soul,

Whenever you were nearby.

 

You to hold me and say you love me,

You kissed me like the best.

I could never see your lies,

Was I nothing more than the rest?

 

Before long, it was over,

You said goodbye to soon.

Now I find myself,

Crying alone in my room.

 

I miss you every day,

I think if you so much.

The thing I miss the most,

Is the warmth of your touch.

 

Yet my life will continue,

I still wake up every day.

I’ll fall in love again,

Somewhere along the way.

 

This morning I looked out the window,

All I saw was white.

For a moment, I couldn’t determine,

Was it day or night.

 

Winter’s Shade is killing me.

I’m withering away.

I want my life the way it was,

Before that fateful day.

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I Love You

I Love You

L.A. Clark

Very few times,

Is a friend like you found.

One you can turn to,

Someone who is always around.

When I met you I knew,

You’d always be here.

With you by my side,

I have nothing to fear.

Someone to hug me.

Someone to wash away my pain.

Someone to wipe up the tears.

Someone to help me stay sane.

You are all that I need,

To keep a smile on my face.

You’re the type of person

Who cheers for me till the end of the race.

When I am sick,

Or just feeling down,

You pick me up,

And remove my frown.

You put your arms around me,

Squeeze till the bad is gone.

Look in my eyes,

And put in my heart a song.

I never want to lose you,

You’ll always be in my heart,

You’ll be here till the end,

You were here from the start.

I may never say “Thank You”

I may never speak of my love,

Always know I mean it,

And that I hold you above.

Next time you lift me up,

Know how much I love you

Because of the way you’ve shown,

That you love me too.

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My Lie

You said that you love me,
Was that just a lie?

You said that you loved me,
So why do I cry?

I thought that you loved me,
Was I in a trance?

I thought that you loved me
From our very first dance!

Softly you held me, slowly we swayed;
For one brief moment, my fears washed away.

You think I still love you,
That I cry until dawn.

You think I still love you,
My darling I’ve moved on.

Yet it is over,
You still are so cruel,

Yet it is over
I end up the fool.

Dear I must ask of you,
Tonight while you slumber;

Dear I must ask of you;
Try to forget my number.

Do not fret for the pain you caused,
For I’ve met someone who has made me free.

Do not fret for the pain you caused;
For the first time, thanks to you, I’m in love with me.

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